Just Don’t

I know that there will be times that it will be hard to get up and get moving.

However I know you have it in you.

I know because my message has reached you, so your ready.

There are a few things that you need to know in order to make it through.

The main one is that you are here today.

You are in this moment and you are alive.

You are here for a reason, we all are.

You have hopes and dreams that you deserve to have.

Don’t let anyone take them from you.

There will be walls that you might feel as if they are there to stop you.

Never let them stop you,

Grab a hammer and knock them down.

If the walls are big, Grab a bigger hammer and knock even harder.

The harder you hit them the stronger you will become.

The closer you will get to your goal.

I know it sounds simple but I also know it is not.

It will be a struggle.

A struggle you will go through everyday.

It will be a struggle that is well worth it in the end.

Just Don’t give up and Don’t give in.

I know that it is so easy to give up but don’t.

When you give up you will end up with nothing.

When you fight you will end up with everything.

Heather J

DEPRESSION

Depression is such a silent killer. Most people never find out until it’s to late.

There are so many people committing suicide and its is such a shame.

Depression does not discriminate it does not care if your young, old, black, or Chinese depression does not give a dam.

It does not care what time of day it is, or what your doing when it decides to hit.

It just hits and keeps on going.

Depression is also selfish it does not want to share you with anyone else.

It often makes you keep it a secret.

It makes you tell little white lies.

Come on now you know the lies I am talking about.

FINE I WILL BE THE SNITCH JUST REMEMBER ITS FOR YOUR OWN GOOD.

Depression makes you lie and say …

Oh I am ok..

Nothings wrong..

I just did not sleep good..(you did not sleep good because depression kept you up all night. ) but depression will not let you tell that.
Depression will stick in the back of your mind and tell you lies.

Ohhh you know the lies…

It will tell you things like your not good enough. ( but you and I know you are)

It will have you thinking your worth less ( when we both know your worth more than gold.)

It will tell you that your a failure and that your good for nothing. ( we both know that there is so much good in you that there is nothing out there that’s big enough to hold it all)

All you can do is take one day at a time.

Most of all get help because you can not do it alone.

Believe me I tried to do it alone and Depression almost won.

I am a fighter and I know you are to.

If you were not a fighter you would not have read what I wrote.

Get help its not a bad thing to do. Plus I enjoy writing for you.
If I am able to reach one person today, its another day that depression did not win .

Depression is winning a fight we should not allow it to win.

Heather Jones

Thankful

I woke up this morning wondering what I was thankful for.  

To be honest at that time I really did not know.

With everything that is going on in this world what is there to be thankful for.

I could always say my health but with the way things are going, one wrong move and I could be here today and gone tomorrow.

I know I should not feel that way, but I do.

However, I am thankful for the chance to be heathy one more day.

I am also now that I think about it, I am thankful for my five senses.

I love watching the birds fly.

I love listening to Beethoven Moonlight Sonata.

I love the smell of fresh baked cookies.

I also love the taste of them.

Most of all touch I miss human touch.

Because fist bumping and elbow tapping does not do it for me.

In the end I guess there are 6 things I am thankful for…

How about you what are you thankful for?

Heather J

Always my Baby

Happy birthday my baby girl, even tho your 27 now you are and always will be my baby. Just look at you and all that you have done with your life. Your living your dream and I am so proud of you for that. You are are a beacon of love and light…

People love to love you and everyone you meet you seem to make their lives bright just like a light. Your smile is so beautiful and bright wow I just can not believe I made that light.

But you know me I do what I do and I broke the mold when I made you.

I can not express how proud I am of you and I always will be.

There have been times like many many many many times you have taken me there ….. But I would never ever wish that you didn’t, because it only made me love you even more.

Even tho we are not as close as we use to be …. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY LITTLE BABY GIRL. MY PRECIOUS PRECIOUS PRECIOUS BABY GIRL.

Bombs and Unicorns

Living the life that you truly want to live can be hard.

Now a days you know don’t who you can truly trust.

It’s like everyone is out for one thing themselves.

I remember when there was a time that everyone worked together to help each other.

But


Now its like everyone works together in order to hurt each other.


I know life is not always going to be Rainbows and Unicorns.


But

Why does it have to be about Bombs and Hate?

Heather J

Learning to Let go

Learning to let go of a forever friend is hard.

One thing I do know for sure is that there’s no way to describe it other than stating that it hurts.

This is a pain that you cannot explain to anyone unless they’ve been there. You never truly know until it happens to you.

When someone tells you that there forever friend has died sorry does not cut it.

And as bad as it may sound maybe the best thing for person to do is to not say anything.

I will admit when I lost my forever friend someone telling me sorry was the last thing I wanted to hear. Sorry does nothing. I wish it did but it just doesn’t.

I just wanted him back, I know he’s gone and I can’t have him back.

But that’s what I want plain and simple.

So this blog I will dedicate to him.

This blog is not only for him, it’s therapeutic for me,  as well as for other people that have lost their forever friends.

I still have not come to grips with the fact that he’s gone.

However, after having him for 13 years I sure in hell will never forget him.

 

Heather J

Garden 

There is nothing better than growing your own fruits and vegetables.

Just the taste of the fresh fruit in your mouth is wonderful.

I don’t know if it’s the fact that I know where it came from.

The fact that I know there are no chemicals involved in its growth.

Then again it could be the fact that I watched it grow from day one.

It could have been that I kept the bugs off of them, watched the bee pollinate them, and made sure the weeds would not steal the nutrients they needed to grow.

Then for all of my hard work they give me the freshest fruit and vegetables that they could.

If you every get the chance take the time to grow something a tomato, a potato, maybe an herb garden.

Just try to grow something, the taste will make you want to keep growing things.

 

The result will be mind blowing!!!

Heather J

The Do Over Card

I often Wonder?

If there is a way that I can get a do over card?

Even if I got the card what on earth would I do with it?

After thinking about it I would do everything the same way….

Except

I would do all the things that I was unable to do before.

I Mean……

I know time has caught up with my body but,  there are things that I can still do, and

There are medications that I can take to help my body after I do them…

I will have so much fun doing all the things I was unable to do before.

I am starting to think that the do over card is not needed after all.

I am going to use my …

Live Life to the Fullest Card

Heather J

NOW

Tell me now how you feel about me.

Tell me now how much you care for me.

Tell me now what I mean to you, tell me NOW.

I want you to tell me now before it’s too late. Because once I’m gone I’ll never know. Once your gone I wont be able to tell you and see the look on your face.

So this is why I’m telling you now how much you mean to me.

I’m telling you now how much I love you. I am telling you this now because tomorrow’s not promised.

I am telling you now because I don’t want to regret it. I don’t want to think back to all of the things I should have said but didn’t.
So let’s sit down and talk for a while. Lets turn our phones off and put them in another room.

Let’s talk about all the things that we used to do, all the things we want to do.  Let’s talk about how much fun we used to have.

Let’s talk about that time that we tried to skip school and almost got caught. Let’s talk about how we used to play monopoly and I would always let you cheat. Let’s talk about how we use to make each other laugh so hard you almost peed on yourself.

I am asking you and begging you let’s talk about it now because once one of us is gone it will be too late.

Tomorrow is never promise to anyone.

So please tell me now, before its to late.

Heather J

RIP

To anyone you were unable to tell how you felt face to face.

For your love ones that are still alive.

TELL THEM NOW.  

Just Don’t

I know that there will be times that it will be hard to get up and get moving.

However I know you have it in you. I know because my message has reached you, so your ready.

There are a few things that you need to know in order to make it through.

The main one is that you are here today.

You are in this moment and you are alive.

You are here for a reason, we all are.

You have hopes and dreams that you deserve to have.

Don’t let anyone take them from you.

There will be walls that you might feel are there to stop you.

Never let them, grab a hammer and knock them down.

If the walls are big well knock even harder.

The harder you hit them the stronger you will become.

As you grow stronger the more obstacles you can over come.

I know it sounds simple but I also know it is not.

It will be a struggle a struggle you will go through everyday.

It will be a struggle that is well worth it in the end.

Just Don’t give up and Don’t give in.

I know that it is so easy to give up but don’t.

When you give up you will end up with nothing.

When you fight you can end up with more than you bargain for.

Heather J