Well I guess I have to say goodbye. There is no way to pretend that you will be on the other end of the phone when I call. I keep thinking that maybe just maybe if I prayed hard enough there would be a way that I could talk to you one last time. I dont need to see you I just want to hear you. I keep playing the voice mails that you left me but that does not seem to be enough. I know they say time heals all wounds but fuck that shit I dont want time I want you.
I would love to write more but my phone is wet from my endless bottles of tears. Plus my phone is running out of battery from looking at the last video I took of you.
I know your in a better place I just thought that place would be on earth with me. I guess that’s what I get for thinking.
When I think about it I am glad your gone. Your not in pain anymore. I guess I am glad I cant hear your voice because I wont hear the pain in your voice. I guess I am hella jealous of everyone that has your time now. I know your having hella fun in heaven.
I guess I will be alright after all, even tho your not physically here with me. Your memories will always be here, and even tho that’s all I have I am glad that at one point I had you in my life. Having you in my life has made me a better person.
You will always be in my heart because I know I will always be in yours
Heather J
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