FIRE

I know I have not written in a while, let me explain.

I will start out by saying I am ok, I survived. Because that’s just what I do… It’s just that unfortunately it took me a little longer to snap back.

In February my house caught on fire. I lost a little over 1/2 of it, but all of those things are replaceable. When I sit back and think about it, all those things truly meant nothing. I say that because I am safe and alive, I made it out ALIVE.. It could have been a lot worse. I could have gotten burned or lost my life, but I didn’t and for that I am so grateful. I will admit I was so mad and pissed that my house caught on fire. I really wanted to blame someone anyone. When I think about it who should I blame. It was electrical, it was nothing that was deliberately done. Yet I was so pissed and hurt.

Then I started to think… Why me?….

Why not me? I am not untouchable, I am not a person that is above the fire law. (If there is a fire law) Things can happen to me just like anyone else. This is the part where I state the fact that I did not come to that conclusion alone. I had a lot of people in my life that snapped me out of the why me why me syndrome.

I will admit it was not easy, nor did I make it easy for them.

When I think back to how I was acting, yes … Hell yes I was wrong…

However at that moment I was super emotional and I did not care. All I wanted was my house back fuck everyone else and what they were trying to say.

I will explain it this way I was at the point where I did not give a fuck about nothing other than my dog. If you could not wave that magic wand ( if there was one) and bring my house back then there was nothing you can say to me so don’t waste your oxygen stop talking good day sir .. good bye.

I am just being honest and at that point I just did not give a damm…

I was not myself, I don’t know who I was but I was not my self.

With that being said I am lucky to be surrounded by wonderful people. Having them in my life is what keeps me grounded. So I strongly suggest you keep good people in your life. People that can keep you grounded. Because you never know when a life changing event will pop up out of no where. An event that will mess you up so bad that you won’t know your ass from a hole in the ground … yes I said it

Well I guess I have talked enough for now…

Heather J