My Baby Girl

We have been together for 24 years. But it seems like yesterday that you were fighting so hard to get out in to this crazy world.

I think you wanted to see me just as much as I wanted to see you.

The first time I look in your eyes I felt whole, complete. It was like you were the other part of me that I was looking for. It was at that point that I knew that you would love me just as much as I love you.

However when I think back at that moment the look you gave me was more like what the hell did I get myself into.

It was like you were saying where am I, how did I get here, and who cut my food tube.

I knew from that moment on that I would move heaven and earth to make sure you had everything you ever needed.

In my heart of hearts I know that I did the best that I could.

I mean when you have a child it doesn’t come with instructions, and when I had you there was no Internet and no google, I just had to wing it. Yet somehow I knew what to do, not to toot my own horn but I think I did a damn good job.

It was not that easy but it was definitely worth it. We’ve been through a lot together and we were able to survive because we had one another.

Even though we’re not as close as we used to be we are still closer than most.

As I write this I have to admit I eyes are leaking a little, I don’t know if it’s from reminiscing about the things that we’ve been through together. Or reminiscing about the crazy things that we’ve done together. I mean think about it how many mothers and daughters go to the store during a tornado warning and run away from the carts that are being pushed by the wind. Then once we make it to the car we laughed so hard we cry.

Remember playing shooting games on the PlayStation and you would use me as a moving target when I was on your team. Even tho you said it was an accident I know you were aiming your me. It could not have been an accident because I always got hit in the head.

Again it feels just like yesterday that you took your first steps, and said your 1st words. Yet it was 24 years ago today that you took your 1st breath.

I often wonder where did the time go, I wish I could go back. Back to the days that we would put puzzles together, when we would sit and color.

Just to sit and watch you as you did you homework and the way you would look at the ceiling like the answer to the question is up there somewhere. Then you would look at me like I hid the answer from you and we would both laugh, cus we knew what the other person was thinking.

Time has somehow slipped away from us. Unfortunately there’s no way we could never get that time back, because it’s the way of the world.

One thing I can say is sometimes when you look at me and I look into your eyes, I can still see that little girl that needed me years ago. Even though you’re all grown up now,

You have always been and you always will be my baby girl.

Heather J